I have so much internal dialogue, but much of it is mindless chatter. Not worth putting out there for the public. The cobwebs of the day at one time were lifted when I had my morning run, but when I began experiencing morning sickness in the early stages of pregnancy, the fire, that passion, that need, that persistence vanished along with it. In the meantime, I am left with the internal dialogue. Some of it comes in a negative form, which is a constant battle to overturn and create something positive.
On a different note, I know it will reappear after the arrival of our long awaited baby… a baby girl. I’m beginning to wonder if there will ever be a baby boy in our future. I feel like I’ve been pregnant FOREVER! I’m currently 32 weeks, so I basically have a month to go. It’s been a little rough. Sleeping at times feels nonexistent. She’s my fourth baby, so I do know what it’s like once the baby is out of my belly. We haven’t chosen a name yet, but here are a couple we have tossed around. There’s Brooke (meaning small stream) and Sasha (defender or helper of mankind). No other names have made the cut, so we are definitely open to suggestions.